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When will I stop being resentful?

I have two amazing sons. I am definitely done having children yet;still, I am resentful of the pregnant women out there who strut around the mall with their big belly and cute maternity outfits. Even though my pregnancy with youngest was MUCH MUCH more normal, I still walked around daily holding my breath, waiting for the shoe to drop. I did get to walk around the mall yet I never felt like part of the "club". I tried for 2 years and 5 IVF cycles to get pregnant. I finally basked in the joy when I found out I was pregnant with twin boys. I breathed. I felt I was home free....clearly that's not what happened. I am bitter towards the people who tell others they are pregnant at 5 weeks and sail through the pregnancy until week 40--co mplaining of how big they are. I am jealous of those who dont mark their pregnancy in weeks---holding on to the fact that they will feel better once they hit the 34 th week, 36 th , etc.. I have to hold my tongue to those who tell me the...