eatthefrostingfirst

I have two amazing sons. I am definitely done having children yet;still, I am resentful of the pregnant women out there who strut around the mall with their big belly and cute maternity outfits. Even though my pregnancy with youngest was MUCH MUCH more normal, I still walked around daily holding my breath, waiting for the shoe to drop. I did get to walk around the mall yet I never felt like part of the "club". I tried for 2 years and 5 IVF cycles to get pregnant. I finally basked in the joy when I found out I was pregnant with twin boys. I breathed. I felt I was home free....clearly that's not what happened. I am bitter towards the people who tell others they are pregnant at 5 weeks and sail through the pregnancy until week 40--co mplaining of how big they are. I am jealous of those who dont mark their pregnancy in weeks---holding on to the fact that they will feel better once they hit the 34 th week, 36 th , etc.. I have to hold my tongue to those who tell me the

This morning my youngest decided to tantrum over the fact that he couldn't have candy for breakfast. He laid on the floor, kicked his feet, hit me, and screamed until I carried him up to his crib for a time out. He continued to scream for another 5 minutes until I went up and asked him if he was ready to stop. "yes. Sorry Mommy'. Okay....we come downstairs and I proceed to tell him that it's time to get ready to bring oldest to school. "Me school. Me go school". I explain to him, like I do every morning, that he will go to school when he is 3 and now oldest goes to school. "NO! ME SCHOOL". Here we go again....on the floor, hands clenched, kicking, screaming. I look at the clock...it's only 830AM. I love the age of two.

Oldest has found a love of squash. Well, a like of it anyways. Roche Brothers brand to be specific. He licked his fingers like crazy last night before bed after continually dipping his hand into the container. Today I brought it for "Feeding school" and did amazing. (Amazing for a non eater isn't the same amazing as you and I may know but really...amazing!) We (because I'm in this with him) also ate a few bites of cheese and veggie stick WITHOUT A GAG! NO VOMIT! Again..AMAZING! The squash was the highlight as he finished his whole container that I packed for him. He is making great progress but let me clarify.... Firstly and foremost, to all of you with children who eat normally, I know you may not get my world, nor do I expect you to. I love the fact you ask about oldest progress and want to know all you can about how he is doing. I appreciate the support you give me day in and day out but know also that you can't really understand WHY he doesn't eat. I tr

I guess that most of you who are reading this already know me and my whole history of the past 4+ yrs so I wont get into too much but whoever said that g-d doesn't give you more than you can handle really hasn't been tested lately! I'm tired. I have major pms right now and am tired of carting my child to therapy. I want normalcy. I want worries about suv vs minivans, who will take one son to soccer and the other to swim lessons, too many playdates, not enough time in the day..... Well, I do not have enough time in the day but that's not from too many playdates. It's from juggling therapies. I was now told that youngest (26 mos) should go for a PT/OT eval bc he doesn't have great body awareness...I call this being a bull in a china shop. He is in the 97% for height and weight. He is a big boy who isn't very agile but who would be at the top of your percentile? I'm not too worried actually but honestly, do I need another therapist on my plate? Youngest