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Each year as our March for Babies walk approaches, I relive my pregnancy. I relive, pretty much, each aspect of highs and lows that I went through for 28 weeks and then ....the after. A few weeks ago, Dear Husband and I were asked to speak at Brigham and Women's NICU to tell our story. We are the ambassador family this year for the Boston March for Babies walk and we are more than happy to help out anyone that we can. We feel fortunate we are given a platform where we can tell our story and share with others. Brigham NICU is particularly meaningful for us because that is  where our sons were born. That is where Zachary took his first..and last breath. That is where I spent 6 1/2 weeks-holding onto my pregnancy. So when Dear Husband and I entered the NICU, it was almost if we had never left. The instant smell of the purell (the green kind, not the clear) brought us back to a time where we had to look through an isolette to visit our son. The corner position in NICU C is now b...

Another early release Wednesday? Am pretty sure we have more short days than long And for gods sake it's vacation week...AGAIN?! As I scramble for something to do with the kids I think why on earth did I plan a trip that is NOT during school vacation week? What was I thinking? Well, I know I was thinking that it was probably $2000 more to fly during April break and am pretty sure I thought a cruise would be insane then but still...a week off of school and then another week off later? Clearly was not thinking clearly! Regardless, a cruise is in our future so that's the bright side. I admit I have threatened the kids that they NEED to sign up for kids camp on board and that if youngest thinks he is eating chicken nuggets for 8 days straight he is mistaken but I do realize..say what you want about my kids (Well you may not say much as  you dont know them as I do. No, they're good kids, really they are. Sometimes fresh and rude..and whiny..but..)  they DO rise to the occa...

After checking on my boys (as Ive done every night for the past 8+ years  before I crawl into bed) I say to Dear Husband, "Im so in love with them" "Thats because theyre sleeping" he replies. Well true. They are absoloutely delightful to look at when theyre sleeping as they are not fighting, whining, or talking back. Yet, I am sure I am pretty completely in love with them even when they are awake. Its true that Motherhood changes you completely. Me- for the better. I am 100% positive (okay, 99.9%) that I am a different person because of my two sons. Especially oldest. I am a more thoughtful, tolerant, accepting and patient (kinda) person because of all that I have gone through. All that he has gone through. All that we have gone through as a family. Driving home the other day my wedding song came on the radio. Billy Joel's "Just the way you are". It was a no brainer that would be our song. Both huge Billy fans and the words were loving...

Whoever said 40's are the new 30's haven't met me. Although not sure my body was so great in my 30's at least I could see. I didn't need glasses or to ask my children what something says on a package bc the darned letters are so small. At least I didn't need to get breast MRI's yearly to make sure my overly "dense" boobs (correction. one boob) doesn't have breast cancer-again. At least I could lose 5 lbs. Okay I didnt lose 5lbs but I couldve lost 5 lbs WAY easier than I can now. At least I could walk, bend (sorta) lift and reach without pain and being arthritic in more than one joint (back, shoulder and knee. Really? I'm 45 and I have arthritis? This worries me for life at 55 or even 65!) Oh, and pain in my feet. All the time. Something about fascitis and flat feet.  Gray hairs, marks on my skin, hotflashes, bags under my eyes..MAKE IT STOP!  Yes, health has gone drastically downhill in my 40's (okay, drastically may be an over...