eatthefrostingfirst

I wonder at what point I will stop watching Law and Order SVU reruns? When did "I'm good" replace "no thank you" How have I never gotten sick from eating raw cookie dough? How have I managed to even make cookies after all the raw cookie dough that I eat? I really should be a contestant on Wheel of Fortune How often should I be washing my bras? I decided when I need a good laugh I hang out at the beach and watch people try to set up their tents and umbrellas. I used to be such a people person. And then I realized I'm really more of a stay at home in my pj's person. #Thisis52 I think I'm going to try keto (while putting a handful of M and M's in my mouth) When did the oldies station start playing 90's music? I think I could really be friends with the Today show hosts. Dylan, Jenna and Siri  are totally my people Will I ever sleep soundly again now that my kid will soon be driving? (And then I laugh and realize I haven'...

A friend reached out to me asking if I knew of any cancer support groups. I immediately knew that all the hospitals have support groups for survivors and those living with cancer. I knew of LIVESTRONG and their ties to the YMCA. No. Not that kind of support group, she said. The kind where people just get it. That's the thing. The support groups where you go into the hospital (where you had all your treatment) (where you get flashbacks and hot flashes the second you step into said hospital) the groups where you sit around with a cup of coffee talking about..  how exercise is important how you need to do your follow up visits how you should be eating less ice cream and more kale and almonds That's not the support group we always crave. (Relax. They’re totally needed. Just not always what we want) The groups we often DO want? I have no sex drive My fake boob doesn't fit into my bra I have more GI problems than my spouse wants to hear about I want to puke...

It's almost Pinktober. A month I used to not hate ( but now I hate) Because I don't need Pinktober to remind me about breast cancer. I've been NED for almost 2 years (!!) but there's not a day (I know. Depressing... Not a day) that I don't think of cancer. Don't worry- it's not like every day I'm sitting worrying about cancer during my Law and Order reruns. It's just that every day; I'm reminded of it. (Because I now have a body that's kind of hard to not scream YOU HAD CANCER) In the past month I've heard of two new people being diagnosed with cancer. This isn't surprising. It's a freakin epidemic. I'm not sure if it's my age. One day we are all out celebrating new marriages and arrivals of babies And the next we are discuss aching backs (knees, necks, feet)  mammograms (colonoscopies, prostate tests) and the need for reading glasses. That's how it works with cancer. One day you're bitching ...

When I became a mom, my own mom said to me "You're only as happy as your saddest child" Which, at the time, made me ponder... and thought well that's depressing but ain't it the god damned truth? This worry stuff never freakin' stops. And if you're a worrier to begin with like you all know that I am it's like a 1000 on a scale of 1-100 Seriously I could be putting the money on therapy and meds towards a vacation to St John Damn you children What I would not GIVE for a day of worrying about a poopy diaper. Sleep deprived because they were up all night with colic?  BRING IT!  You toddler years have nothing on these teenage years. And boys? Don't think you are getting anything other than a "fine" "good" and "nothing" out of them because apparently nothing goes on during 8 hours of highschool.  And don't ask a question. Seriously, don't bother  because you ...